SYAHIRAHAHAHAHA :D

2012-01-25T21:05:00.003+08:00

Sometimes , i should pause for awhile , and look back .
Because i've never realised the people who has always been standing behind me .

2012-01-25T20:17:00.001+08:00

Yknow right now i'm so sad because my phone is giving me problems
The home button is not working and the freakin voice control kept popping out of no reason
Everytime i open an app , i need to switch off my phone to get back to the home screen
I went to tamp alone just now to go to the singtel shop hoping that they can repair my phone but they told me to go to the servicing centre at orchard instead
I was so sad because i have no time to go orchard with my packed schedule
I was already stressed about my studies but my phone just had to add in to my already crazy mind
WHYY PHONE WHYY ?!
WHAT SINS DID I DO THAT YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME SO SAD AND STRESSED LIKE THIS ?

Was it because i criticised Apple products last time before i got myself one ?
If yes , I'm sorry
I love Apple
I love iphone
Please dont do this to me
Please i beg you phonee pleaseeeee
I have no time to send you for repair please
I'll try to restore you
Please , i beg you . Please get back to normal
Haaaaaais

NAK NANGIS AHHHHHH
The fact that everything was bought with my own hard earned money and that its already spoiling even before its 6 months old , is making my heart ache . SO BADLY

I wanted to restore my phone but i was scared that i'll lose all my contacts
Not that i have alot of contacts to even worry about anyway
Its just that , there are numbers of precious people in my phone
If i lose them , i'll lose them forever

Okay maybe just HIS number
I even sanggop saved his number manually so that i wont lose it once i restored my phone , in case if my back up didnt really backed up -_____-
Hahahah apa aku bobal
No laaaaaaaa
At least i can still wish him happy birthday right ! since its just around the corner already
Its okay if he doesnt remember mine

Haaaaaaais the things i wish i wont do
Why do i even bother
I also dont understand myself
I say i wont bother anymore
But then still worrying like hell if i lost his number
I bet he doesnt even care anymore

But oh well
I'm not good at remembering birthdays at all
So the fact that i already planned to wish him , he should feel lucky that i even bother
But still , people wont realise the efforts i tried putting in
Because the only thing they know is blame me for the things i dont do
Or maybe i did .
OKAY APAPE WHATEVER BYE I'M SO SAD ABOUT MY PHONE K HAAAAIS

2012-01-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

Abang Helmi says that my face changes is so drastic that a person who doesnt meet me even for a few months , wont be able to recognise me now .

Well OP COURSEEE
kalau dah kakak kakak memang muka berubah
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA K.

Other than that , my hair has become one of the precious things i have right now
Its so long already
I can use it to strangle any jerks who even dare lie to me
HAHAHAHA
Okay no .

Sometimes i wonder why must guys lie
i really really really really despise lies i can never stop emphasizing on that

the other time at work , my friends told me abt a guy who beats up his ex-girlfriends
and i happened to know that guy
(You know , thats why facebook is amazing sometimes)
and the most irritating part was , whenever he talked to me , he sounded like some angel omg i feel so deceived
he'll be like ,'Assalamualaikum syahirah' , 'takpe saya redha. allah knows best'

MAKKK
aku mcm nk muntah tawuu
i really thought he was a nice person
haaaaais i feel so cheated

another type of guy i can never tolerate is guys who put their hands on girls
So girls , if your boyfriend ever slap or pinch or hit you eventhough it was meant to be just a joke ,
seriously dont even bother dating him
At first it will be a joke
And then later , hahhhhhhhhhh
PIECE OF JOKE I TELL YOU

HAHAHAHAHHAHA
i mean seriously , a gentleman will never hit a lady

There was a friend of mine who told me this,
'I love her . Thats why it never crossed my mind to even hold her hands . I'll hold her hand when she becomes my legal wife'

I WAS LIKE OMG WHY YOU SO SWEEEEEET

Guys should learn from him la seriously
If you really love somebody , you should respect her physically , mentally and emotionally

Thats why i've never really go hoohaa over couples who cant stop touching each other
Like the recent video about the long distance relationship thingy
Everybody was like omg so sweet omg this is the sweetest thing ever
-__________-
Aku tgk skejap je tros tutop
They should rename the video as 'CANT STOP KISSING RELATIONSHIP' or something
I think like 90% of the video were both of them kissing la seriously

HAHAHAHAH but oh well
different people with different perceptions
I'm just saying whats mine

Anyway , FEBRUARY is just around the corner
Do you know what that means ?
Somebody is gonna turn LEGAL !
hehehehehehhe

2012-01-17T01:08:00.002+08:00

Says it all.

2012-01-06T11:45:00.002+08:00

Okay please be very thankful that i'm updating my blog right now because ikotkan hati (follow my heart) , i dont wanna do anything right now because i'm freakin drained and tired and just .. FREAKIN TIRED

Okay while its still fresh in my mind , i shall blog

So like i've said , i was involved in the NYP open house righht
I had duty today over at the auditorium
All the courses set up booths so people just walk in and ask questions about .. whatever they wanna ask la basically duhhhh

So i was i stationed at my course booth
My job was to tell people what my course is actually all about
What we do , what we become when we graduate , our cut off points and stuffs like that

Just for your info , (just in case you dnt know , i'm going to brag for awhile)
Do you know that my course has the lowest cut off point in the entire school ?
As in not in the entire school of health sciences only
Its the lowest in the entire courses in NYP
And do you know that there were 300++ applicants and every year , the intake is only 26 students ?

AND ..
Do you know that i was one of the lucky 26 out of the 300++ applicants ?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i feel so special somehow
hehehehe

Okay anyway ,
The open house was kinda fun but it was super freakin tiring
Yknow since its a booth right , we had to stand all the way . There's no stool or something that we can sit or or what
And at the booth , 5 people were stationed there but the people doing most of the job is just me and my malaysian friend , Mirelle
The other three helped out abit and the next minute you know , they'll just disappear somewhere else

So imagine me standing since 2-6 PM
My legs were going to break i swear

Okay so me being me , forever with my embarrassing moments ...

I wanted to shit because i had mcspicy for lunch
so i needed to discard some mcspicy shit
HAHAHAHAHAHHA

So i left the booth for awhile and went up all the way to level 5 toilet
didnt want to go to the lower levels because there's too many people i'm scared the toilet will stink
HAHHAHAHHAHA

Okay so i was already freakin tired
I dont even know what was i thinking la

I DIDNT LOCK THE TOILET DOOR.
(like can you believe it ? locking the toilet door is like the natural/immediate response righhht)

So i was standing and unzipping my jeans slowly
I was slowly pulling my jeans down
The moment my underwear was exposed , somebody just slams the door open

SHE FREAKIN SHOUTED 'HOLY SHIT!' IN FRONT OF MY FACE

both of us were just standing there staring at each other for afew seconds

I was just too shocked to react anything hhahahahaha
i just stood there , i didnt even cover my exposed stuffs with my shirt or anything HAHAHAHAHA

So in the end the girl smiled and closed back the door for me

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA
malu kehapaaa ya allah !

And the worse thing is , i was too embarrassed that i forgot to shit
I just pee-ed and quickly ran out from the toilet because i didnt want to bump into the girl again or something

EMBARRASSING PLEASE .

Okay neverminddddddddd

So i went back to the booth and told mirelle
She was laughing at me like hell la seriously
haaaaais

Okay , there were two NYP malay boys who kept hanging around my booth area
Actually i've seen one of them alot of times in our school Mcdonalds everytime its lunchtime

So when there were no people at our booth , me and mirelle were just taking photos and talking
Thats when both of them came up to my booth and started asking stupid questions
There were free gifts so he kept asking what is this what is that what is that for why must do like that zzzz
Me and mirelle just answered whatever questions he asked `
But it was kinda stupid that he asked what are the brochures for and stuffs like that
Me and mirelle prangai layankan because we knew he was a NYP student since they were wearing the NYP shirt too

In my booth , there is a display set . And in the display set we displayed a small skull
Its like a hand sized skull
There were other display items as well la like teeths , plastic teeth , stuffs like that
So the conversation went like this..

Guy: Eh whats this ?
Mirelle: Ini gigi plastic we buat when kita first year
Guy: EH YOU CAN SPEAK MALAY AH ?
Mirelle: Yalaaaa
Guy: What is that ? Eh , who's head is that ? Monkey head ah ? Why so small ?
Mirelle: Who's head ? YOUR HEAD AHHHHHH !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
And i burst out laughing right in front of his face
Hamekk kao jawapan bodoh

So to sum it all up , I had a good time with Mirelle during the open house although we were both damn drained from all the standing and talking

I'll be on duty again this Saturday
This time i'll be at the registration counter
So you'll probably see me when you want to collect those goody bags
Huhuhu
And i think NYP goody bags looks so naaaaise this year

COME DOWN TO NYP !
i think the performances are kinda cool too
And there's like mini flea market also
CHEAP STUFFS PEOPLE !

hahahahahaha (promote skolah)

2012-01-04T21:03:00.001+08:00

Perut aku makin hari macam makin cute je ? Ini pun pakai bengkung tetap boncet
I've been sleeping with bengkung every night now
Orang dulu dulu kata , (okay maybe just my nenek)
nak dapat perut flat , hari hari kene lilit perut
aku lilit perut dah macam gajah kene ikat ader ahh
senak gila ya allah
okay nevermind

Have i told you guys that i'll be involved in Nanyang Polytechnic's Open House 2012 ?
Okay maybe i did but anywaaays !
I'm on duty on Thursday evening (which is tmr)
and the whole day on Saturday
Just in case you guys wanna find me , (ehemm mcm phm nye aku)
actually dont need to find me la .
You'll probably see me the first thing you step into the atrium
I'm in charge of the registration area

YESSSSS I'LL BE SEEING ALMOST ALL THE VISITORS BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO COME TO MY STATION TO FILL IN THE REGISTRATION FORM

Oh goddddddd yknow how embarrassing is that ?

WHYYYYY ! WHYYYY of all places must i be stationed at the registration area ?
haaaaais
Okay nevermind

Actually i'm quite excited because i think my job is quite cool
And besides i'll always be at the atrium
And thats where all the awesome performances will be held
Well at least i can watch all those dance shit or drama or whatever la
Cant be that boring righhhhhhht ?

So yea mannn ! Come down to NYP all of you fresh graduates !
Anywaay , if you're interested to see what diploma i'm taking , you can actually visit the School Of Health Sciences.
Under Dental Hygiene & Therapy

I'll be stationed at my dental lab tmr evening so if you guys wanna check it outzzzz , i'll be honoured to bring you on a tour in the lab
And besides , we're having lab session in the morning anyway so if you come early , you can actually see those awesome stuffs we do during our lab

Tmr i'll be taking impressions for my labwork .
What's an impression ?
Basically it's taking a model copy of your dentition for model study when people wanna do braces or dentures and stuffs like that
Okay zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Basically its this thing !

Its really cool .
But i swear its the most stressful thing i've ever done
Oh well , so yessssssss come and see awesome stuffs in our school

Aku promote mcm haperrrr je
Step ader orang baca gitu
Kalau baca pun , step kuasa gitu
PUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh well , just sharing with you guys the awesome things i do in school everyday :)

2011-12-30T00:43:00.001+08:00

Hi.

I'm just blogging because i'm purposely making everyone jealous of the awesome things i got my hands on

(Okay maybe just the ones who are obsessed with ombak rindu; like me.
Or maybe just me -_-)

First of all , I've watched the movie at the cinema as soon as it was released.

Which means , i have been obsessing about this waay before everyone else did

Now that the full movie is out on youtube ,

I AM STILL OBSESSING ABOUT OMBAK RINDU

hehehehehehehe i cant help it la seriously

Its just too awesome it left a great impact on me yknow

I just cant get over the fact that i cried so much watching this

Just today , i've watched it twice through my phone .

And i still cry eventhough i know every little thing that was going to happen

First time in history i cried so much watching a movie

Titanic pun aku nangis part climax je k

Ombak Rindu je aku nye gembeng , masyaallah !

Okay so lets just continue bragging

While everyone else were waiting for the novel to be released ,

I already got hold of the newly printed book

It came all the way from KL thanks to my friend ! hehehe

(ehemm Faiz if you're reading this , be honoured)

HAHAHAHAHAH whutttt the ..

Okay next , while everyone else were trying to watch it at Rex cinema ,

I've already got hold of the original DVD

hehehehehe

OMG I FEEL SO STUPID BRAGGING ABOUT THIS BUT IDC !

For all you know i'll paste posters of Ombak Rindu in my bedroom

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA k no

Thats just too much

K anyway ,

lets play spot the difference game

Left: Novel , Right: DVD

Spot any difference ?

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mintak kene maki ah

Imagine if your face like that la

On the cover summore

Haaaais kesian Abang Mael

They should use the picture on the novel cover right !

Its so mean but i find it so funneh HAHAHAHHA

When i bought the DVD i was like starring at it because i was so happy i bought it

But i felt that something was off

Then after afew minutes of starring ,
thats when i realised they used a different picture of him

Its just so sad

Everyone else looked so nice on the cover

BUT WHAT ABOUT HIM ?!

Haaaais kesian tau Mael

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA but its so funny if you keep starring at it

Its even funnier when you look at the whole picture

Its like he's having the shock of his life looking at Lisa Surihani

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Haaais sabar je la Mael ~

Okay other than that , this song is stuck in my head

I even tried dancing like that but soooo FAILED

PUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Me and dancing is like eating Chocolates with Rice

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yesssss you'll go EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

aiyaaaa whatever la

Bye :)

2011-12-29T01:04:00.000+08:00

My position looked so awkward but actually i'm hugging her laa
but anw i think this gemok has been there for me better than anyone else did
she was there right by my side when things go wrong , when my days were dark , when i cried , when i needed somebody to hug
she was there , better than anyone else did
she doesnt talk .
but she seems to understand me better than how humans can
i just need to look at her , call her name , and she'll know what to do
I love you Sweety , thanks for being there for me .
I think i should just marry you and live happily ever after la
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA zzzz

Okay so today , kinda went on a date with Rafikah
Just the two of us
Actually the actual plan kind of cock up so both of us were already freakin exhausted and tired and hungry and sad so we decided to have an expensive dinner so at least it makes us feel better
And i almost puked because i was too full we didn't even finish our food
Hahaha i was wondering why also
I used to be able to finish the whole plate of the New York Fish N Chips
but i only ate half of it and i had to surrender
perut dah kecut gaknye eh
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA whuuttt -___-

So basically we did alot of catching up
Talked about our single lives
And i told her about all the jerks i've met
And she told me her stories
We saw alot of weird people in the train today
We laughed alot
We sighed alot
But overall , she was a good companion .
Well she has always been so yea , nothing new

So yupp , thats my Wednesday for you :)

2011-12-26T02:47:00.001+08:00

Hi thats my bare face for you .

Actually i had to take a few shots to get a proper picture HAHAHAHAHAHA

oh well i'm not as gifted as some people who have natural beauty yknow

thats why i never leave house without applying AT LEAST some BB cream

i'm not saying i put on thick makeup though .

Just enough so that i wont look so sick and pale and smelly faced PUAHAHAHAHA

Sometimes i dont get it why guys keep emphasizing girls should go natural without any makeup

well hello boys , you'll faint if all the girls starts going out without any makeup okay

probably you guys would rather turn gay or something

HAHAHAHAHAHA okay no just kidding

makeup doesnt change one's beauty . it ENHANCES one's beauty #FACT

If you like girls looking all natural without makeup so much , wait until you get a wife la then you'll see natural face everyday every morning every night

HAHAHAHAHAHA

okay so anw .

GUESS WHUTTT PEOPLE !

hehehehehehehee

guess who got a hold of this awesome novel ?

jeng jeng !

My friend bought it for me from KL hehehehe

Havent start reading yet though since i havent finish the current novel i'm reading

But anyways i was practically jumping in my bedroom with this book in my hand on the day my friend passed it to me

hahahahahahahhaa sometimes i feel so crazy

haaais

But anyways ! the movie is out in singapore omggggg anyone wants to go and watch with me ?

hehehehe i dont mind spending so much to watch this over and over again

But no la , it will be embarrassing if people see me cry my eyes out

BUT STILL ! i wanna watch again :(

I'll just wait until the full movie is out on youtube or something then i'll download it and put it in my phone so i'll watch it everyday and be engulfed with myself with overflowing feelings

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA what the ..

whatever la , told you i'm obssessed with ombak rindu ^^V

Okay besides obssessing with ombak rindu , i changed my home screen and lock screen wallpaper

hehehe look at this bombom

okay actually yknow what , both people in the picture are bombom la actually

zzzz -___-

Hahahahahhahaa geram laa with this Ameer Zeeshan !

Yknow he's the cutest baby i've ever met

Or is it because he's my nephew that's why aku compliment dia pun tak agak agak

HAHAHHAHA but whatever la

he's still the apple of my eye

Grow up handsomely okay sayang ?

hehehehehe aunty gonna pamper you with lots and lots of love and kisses <3

Okay other than that , my life is fine now

Well isn't that what i'm good at ?

Healing on my own , comforting myself , standing back up on my own

I think i know what's my problem or why i'm still single

I get over things too easily , even when i'm almost dead

I fight for the things i want for awhile , when it crashed down on me again , i let go

i let go of things too easily

thats why i havent grab hold of anything until today

But its okay , the time will come

Right now , everything to me seems so immature and fake

Hahaha , sometimes i feel so annoying zzzz

Okay whatever , i'm fine and emotionally stable now

OF COURSE LAAA , SOMEBODY GOT HER OMBAK RINDU NOVEL ALREADY WHUTTT

^^V

2011-12-21T02:32:00.000+08:00

Another reason why my life is awesome .
Its amazing how babies can make you fall in love with them better than how guys can
Or is it just me ?
Hahahaha
Yknow i just love babies .
Their smell can drive me nuts i swear
I kept kissing Ameer's kissable cheeks until he got irritated
Hehehehe
My spine isn't in the best condition but i totally forgot about all the pain and so i carried him all the way .
Walked all over MBS up down left right with him in my arms
And right now , back at home , back to suffering .
Haaaais .
I wonder whats wrong with my spine seriously
Its aching damn badly i'm so worried already
Its been more than a week and its not getting any better
Oh goddd , i pray so hard nothing's going to hurt my spine
I cant even sleep peacefully
Sometimes i get so emotional i thought i will never be able to walk again
Haaaais i'm so worried i wanna cry

But lets think on the bright side
I'm going JB tmr !
I know laa like no link like that right with my spine
HAHAHAHAHA
i'm gonna hunt for ombak rindu's novel tmr i'm serious
For once i'll show all the malaysians how kanchiong a singaporean can be

Anw yknow what . I think i'm being so emotional lately i feel depressed over things i dont even know why
This morning when i woke up from a bad dream i just kept crying and crying and crying
Its depressing that nobody was there for me to let out everything
Well you might see i have alot of friends but in actual fact , they're all cyber friends so its useless when it comes to personal matters like this
I'm actually very ... LONER yknow haaais
But whatever la .
I'm so good at pretending people dont even know i'm depressed
haiyaaaaa

But its so ironic how i started off this post by saying how awesome my life is but then digressing about stuffs that makes my life seemed so pitiful
HAHAHAHAHAHAH what is thissss syahirah

Sometimes its not a good thing being single you know
Speaking of which , do you believe me if i say I AM FIVE YEARS SINGLE ?!
OHMYGOSHHH
its a good thing and a bad thing both at the same time
Good thing is that , you can talk to any guys you want
Bad thing is that , you end up getting hurt over and over again for the same reason until you're so fucking sick and tired you feel like you might as well live like a loner

Okay i'm digressing too much its not good for my brains i feel like a weirdo talking to myself like this
But still , people will waste 10 minutes of their life reading this post because they're so curious about my awesome life
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH wtf syahirah -___-

GOODNIGHT :)

2011-12-20T14:43:00.002+08:00

You know what ?

My parents have been talking about marriage alot lately.

I was wondering why .

Thats when i found out that somebody's parents actually kind of talked to my parents about marriage and stuffs

And its not the first time this has happened.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

omgg seriously

i feel so back in the days where marriage are all arranged by families yknow

well honestly i dont mind

i mean , the part where my parents choose my husband for me

because all the guys i tried looking for are all jerks so whats the point

HA HA HA

but its scary though

what if .. they make an agreement without my knowledge or approval ?

what if .. i'm really getting married once i finish school ?

I'm not thinking too much or what .

But my mom has been bugging me with stupid questions lately .

Like , what colours i want for my wedding decorations .

What kind of settings ..

What kind of wedding gowns ..

And the worse question is , "Kalau nak nikah , ayah nikahkan eh?"

You know , sometimes i feel something is just so fishy

Why would my MOM , like of all WISE people , MY MOM , would ask such a question at this point of time ?

Its exciting yet scary !

My parents friends have been joking everytime they see me or my sister .

Like how much duit hantaran and stuffs .

You know , my parents might look like they take it as a joke .

But what if they're serious at the same time too ?

OMG THIS IS SCARY.

I thought my mom prangai layankan when i told her i wanna get married by 21

oh godddddd

But on the other side , i wonder whose parents talked to my parents about marriage

Hehehehee its interesting though

But anyways , i shall not think too much about this .

I'm still too young to even talk about relationships what more marriage .

But still ......

I'm so freakin curious why would my mom ask me about my wedding decorations and stuffs

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ...

2011-12-18T21:22:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHUTTTTTTT !
holidays holidays wohoo partayeee !
oh yeaa mann
i can finally sleep without any stupid alarms waking me up in the morning
ohmygoddd do you know how heaven that is ?!

hehehehe

okay so lets just update about my life .
well basically there's too much things that happened in my life .
please dont judge my life through my blog posts
trust me , i have an awesome life i swear
its just too bad that i tend to blog when i'm always very .. emotionally disturbed
HA HA
i'm not a girl who cries and cries and cries and .. cries
i'm not saying i dont cry though
cmon man everyone cries -_-

okay whatever .
do you know what piss me the most RIGHT NOW ?
THE FREAKIN CAB FARES LAH OMGG
okay fine , so they wanna increase the fares fine i can still tolerate
BUT WHATS WITH ALL THE TRANSPORT BREAKDOWNS MENG ?!
so you increase the cab fares and all the public transports are breaking down so what are we supposed to travel with ?!
must i like buy bicycle now or something ? goshhh seriously man
i'm not being drama or something but the fact that i'm working and earning my own income now means i'll be financially affected you know .
Cannot you know .
Cannot like this you know .
HIIIIIISSSSSHHHHHHHH .
for all you know you'll see bicycles on the highway soon sighhs

okay , so currently my favourite video :

Seriously i'll watch this over and over again i cant stop laughing its like the funniest video i've ever seen
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA made my day .

my second favourite video :

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
watching this reminds me of me and my three favourite back in Sec Ones
How we would relieve our stress in the lift .
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA omgg Rafikah's screaming face will forever be stuck in my head .
Can never forget those days

Okay other than that , i'm still obssessed with ombak rindu
heheheheee
love love love the movie !
gonna get my hands on the book soon im serious
meanwhile , my nights are spent reading this

CUTE STORY OKAY ! About this gebu girl who fell in love with her facebook chat friend . And he ended up to be the guy she hated the most in reality .

OH and one more thing .
I'm not promoting my school or something but i'll be involved in the Nanyang Polytechnic Open House 2012
I'll be the welcoming party so I'll be welcoming all the guests over at the atrium
So probably you'll see my face welcoming you once you step into NYP huahuaa
Exciting but embarrassing ! Hehehehehe
And then I'll see all the fresh O level graduates faces HUAHUAHUA
been there a year ago :)
Haaaais time flies .
Too fast .

But whatever it is , i'll enjoy every bits and pieces of my life .
There's always ups and downs but i know i'm a strong girl i can pull through everything alone
CHEHHHHH
but excuse me , there's limits to everything ehhhh hehehehehe just saying

Stay updated !

2011-12-18T06:20:00.001+08:00

I wonder how can a person act so well , i actually believed whatever he said . Seriously wow -_-
Thanks for making me believe again that all guys are the same . Dont blame me , i used to think you were different . USED TO . But i was proved wrong . Sighhhs , another reason why i'm still single hahahahahaha wtf ?
Okay nvm . I know nobody can tolerate with my unpredictable character but there must be somebody out there who will keep coming back to me no matter how far i push him away . There's got to be somebody who wont cheat on me , or LIE TO ME , or say the things he dont mean to me to play with my feelings .
There's got to be a guy who will love me so much , he will die if i'm not by his side . He will never get over me no matter how fat i become , or how pain in the ass i can be . The most important thing is , he stays faithful and wont even utter words of goodbyes . His source of happines is me and only me .

I thought these kind of guys dont exist . But no , they do exist . My daddy is one of them . Just like how much he loves mummy , i want somebody to love me just as much .

But the problem is , the guys i've tried liking are all jerks hahahaha what is thisssss !

But anyway , i wont be a bitch la . I wont hate you . Or your girlfriend . I'm not that psycho you know . But i just feel bad for your girlfriend (Whether its a fake or a real girlfriend)

What if she finds out you were drunk that night when you called and begged me ? Hmmmm . I would feel cheated mannnn . But well , i'm a drama bitch that thinks too much so probably i wont compare my thoughts with other people . Because i can find something very ridiculous but someone else might find it okay . Well , just saying .

But still , its a nono for anyone to LIE TO ME ! Goshhh , despise liars the most . I can tolerate psychos but not LIARS . Because at least psychos are being honest #FACT

PS: I thought of suprising him with tickets of the upcoming concert of Amy Search at the Singapore Indoor Stadium . Plan ruined . But lets just be positive from now on , theres always a brighter side of the world . Now i'm starting to believe the phrase 'Everything happens for a reason'
And with this , phewwww my money saved :)

2011-12-05T02:29:00.001+08:00

When i say its good , its really damn freakin good .
This movie beats all the love movie i've ever watched .
Maybe i'm exaggerating because i still cant get over the movie but hell , this movie is freakin awesome !

Trust me , this movie is so sweet and sad i just cant find any good vocabs to explain it in words .
(Or maybe because my vocab is not even good in the first place)
But whatever .

How can a love story be freakin sweet and sad both at the same time ?
Betul betul menyentuh jiwa ragaku , perasaanku , dan segalanya lah yang melibatkan emosi-emosiku
I put my hat down to the novel writer .
Salute you for producing such an awesome love story to make people like me who dont cry easily , cry so badly my eyes puffed up when i exit the cinema

THIS. IS. HISTORY okay people !

I dont show people i cried during movies . Even if i do i can still control my tears
But i swear i cant control my tears during this movie .
It just kept flowing till the movie ends .

IF MY UNCLE CRIED OUT LOUD IN THE CINEMA , what more proof shall i give you about how awesome this movie is ?

Haaaaais go watch la seriously
I'm going to buy the novel and then drown myself in my tears reading it

2011-11-14T02:08:00.001+08:00

Have you tried covering your mouth so you won't make any sound when you're crying ?

It feels like suicide.

Not because you can't breathe.

Because at that point of time , your heart just died.

2011-11-13T20:19:00.001+08:00

At this point of time , i feel like i need to disappear .
I need to run away from everything .
I kept saying this but i never really mean it .
This time i'm serious .
Everything is crashing down on me .
The people whom i thought would be there for me , were never really there .
It's just empty promises and useless talks .
Comforting words become a nuisance to my ears now .
I kept cursing in my heart .
And that , i was never that kind of person .
I've never hate anyone to the extend that i kept chanting hateful words in my mind .
But this time , everyone went too far .
They pushed me off my limits .
I had enough , but i endured .
But they continued bringing me down .
One after another .
One by one .
Slowly .
Right now i shall show you what i'm capable of .
I stayed , i tried making everyone happy .
I tried so hard to make things as normal as i can .
I tried so hard not to be awkward .
I tried so hard to stay strong .
I tried so hard not to show my tears .
I tried so hard to stay faithful and wait .
But some people just can't see how much i've tried .
They assume things and jump to conclusions .

I feel suffocated surrounded by hypocretes .
I don't want to deal with these people anymore .
Because they only hurt me even more .

I'll show you what selfish really means .
I'll show you what cheating really means .
I'll show you what empty promises really means .
And i fucking swear i'll show you what crying yourself to sleep , being guilty over everything and blaming yourself for everything , cursing yourself for thinking that you hurt others too much , really means .

If you can do it to me , trust me
I can do it way fucking better than you can .

I'll do it so much better than you , you'll be stunned with how much i'm capable of .

So long , have a good life :)

2011-11-03T21:09:00.003+08:00

Bestfriend turns seventeen !

Lupchuuuu :)

2011-11-01T02:17:00.000+08:00

People will forever , and never stop judging . They will find ways to know whats going on in other's life . They'll start talking about things which they themselves are unsure of . But they chose to believe what they want to believe , therefore making it seems like whatever they believe is true . Then they'll start assuming .
(Boleh tahan English aku eh . I didnt take Literature for nothing i guess muahahaha)

Just when everything's going back to normal , something always happen . Always .
There goes my name again -___-

Mom: Just as long they dont say bad things about you , thats fine . It just shows that these people care too much , they want to know so much , but they cant find any bad things to badmouth about you . Let them be , jaga nama aja :)

Hi stalkers , thats for you :)

2011-10-12T13:59:00.001+08:00

Lovee reading horoscopes and tarot cards . So true .
But i choose not to believe any of it hahahahaha

2011-10-12T01:39:00.001+08:00

Goodbyes .
Been hearing that alot lately .
At the end of the day you'll still be on your own .

Anw been whatsapping with my bestfriend all day .
The only person who never gets sick of my nonsense , the only person who has seen the REAL me .
The only person i can turn to now since everyone else is leaving . Hopefully he doesnt say goodbye to me too . I'll kill him if he even thinks about it .
Everybody meet my bestfriend apitsssssss
Kau jgn kembang k kering kalau nmpk ni huahuahua .

Anw im blogging using my phone so its turning out really weird zzz

2011-10-05T02:20:00.001+08:00

People say they'll always be there

When i cried ,

When i was at my lowest ,

Where are they ?

2011-09-30T04:09:00.001+08:00

Was sitting in the car when this song came on

Hehehehehehehe sangkut ! :')

2011-09-28T03:12:00.000+08:00

I've been laying in bed with my laptop on my tummy , watching movies after movies . I literally abandoned my phone . So to whoever , if you think im dead or something because you cant get through me , trust me i'm so much alive and healthy and happy .

I AM PERFECTLY FINE AND HEALTHY.

so please dont be worried because im not dead yet pfffft

(just needed some people to know that though)

Okay enough . I've been eating so much because i have so much cravings lately . And i get hungry too easily . Probably because its coming to D-Day of every month . I hate Mr.Period . He makes me look like a fat buffalo everytime he comes to visit my womb sighs

Mom has been lecturing me sighs again . Sometimes i wish i was a boy so i dont have to go through all these teenage girl problems . But then again , WHO RUN THE WORLD ? GIRLS ! so yea , no matter what girls are still the best people that exist in this world

So anw , i'm actually blogging not because i'm so nice to keep my blog updated . I'm actually waiting for my movie to load . I'm going to watch this ! A malay movie called Karipap Karipap Cinta which means urmm Karipap Karipap Love (wth -_-)

Actor mcm handsome je ! (ni part aku suka) hehehehhehe
Okay , going to watch it now .
Till then , if you ever hear from me , consider yourself lucky
PUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA mcm mana punya menghilang je aku zzzz

Oh did i mention i'm going KL MENJERIT this friday ?
I even took leave from work you know !
Wooh nak jumpa abg2 taikotai kat sana amachiaaam ?
PUAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

2011-09-26T03:24:00.000+08:00

jeng jeng ! was so terharu when i saw this . First time i saw so many people view my blog at the same time . Thank you :')Quite big deal for me okay . So if i looked like im bragging , i am actually PUAHAHAHAHAHAThis happens only once in a lifetime you know *action*

Anw saw this on facebook awhile ago .

PUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
zaman bila mau PSLE adik oi
(not that i'm jealous i cant do things like these when i had my PSLE)

Honestly i think kids nowadays are too exposed to the cyberworld
They're too exposed to the kind of things they're not supposed to at their age
I mean cmon man .
I dont even own a phone until i was eleven la please
and my phone is those type with no colours one la
But kids nowadays , PSLE cert pun tkde tapi pakai iphone
And then the other time i went to malaysia for raya . The kids were all busy with their own ipad .
Each of them owns one and they just sat one corner ramai2 and stare at their ipads
GOSH ! SERIOUSLY ?!
shouldnt you guys be running around the house playing hide and seek or something ?
i wouldnt be suprised if one day there's no more kindergarten or P.E lessons or UNO game cards or whatever (okay no , i'll be damn suprised)
Because everyone will just be staring at their ipads/iphone -_____-

Thats why i cant stand some kids nowadays
i used to love little children
because they used to be so innocent and naive
i always love talking to small children
But now , i get pissed or menyampah if i talk to those kids who knows so much and think they're so smart
i mean i have nothing against smart children
but its just that sometimes they dont know their limits
they speak without thinking whether its right or wrong
sometimes i blame it on justin bieber or rebecca black or kesha
for teaching them the wrong lyrics and the wrong things at such a small age
cmon man ! you guys should be singing songs from Hi-Five or something

the other time i heard a small kid singing "sex in the air i dont care i love the smell of it"
WHATS UP WITH THAT MENG ?

tepuk dahi sia aku
haaaais

in the future , when i have my own kids
i wont let my child own a phone until they enter secondary school
i wont let my child create any social-network accounts until they're matured enough
i wont let my child watch MTV
i wont let them watch nickelodeon or whatever shit
because all these will only teach them the wrong values in life

call me old fashioned idc
HAHAHAHAHHAHA

okay , anw
im thinking of redye-ing my hair
i wanted deep red
i used liese cassis berry
first few days it was abit reddish , now its brown :(
was damn pissed off .
should i redye ?

This colour so naaaaaaaise !

should i should i ?

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

2011-09-21T01:08:00.005+08:00

Okay so what have i been up to ?
Holidays = 24/7 MOVIE MARATHON
hehehehehe

So i'm going universal now .
Im no longer watching korean dramas only
I'm starting to watch Thai movies too !
(okay maybe just one movie , but still !)

Its called Crazy little thing called love .
It was a last year's movie
And i enjoyed it very much !
Bare in my mind that i'm very particular about cinta cinta so only good love stories can make me cair(MELTS)
I was like AWWWWWWWWWWW , AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW , OHMYGOD AWWWWWWWW the entire time especially the last few parts
and its ironic how some scenes in the movie happened to me in real life too

Like how i pretended hugging someone every night before i go to bed when actually im hugging my pillow

And how the girls in their uniforms looked like my girls in our uniforms

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

okay overall , its a reaaaaaaaally good love movie
i love it !
just watch the trailer .
you can judge yourself :)

So anyway , other than movie marathon-ing , i've been helping ibu out alot lately
my ibu hurt her arms so she cant really do much with the house chores
so since im somewhat good at it , i've been helping her most of the time (CHEYY !)
like cooking !
jangan pandang aku dgn seblah mata eh !
(dont look at me with one eye eh !)
im quite good at cooking you know actually
i just didnt cook enough to show you my skills
but there were guests coming over to my house for raya the other day and i was the one who cooked okay !
Tadaaa ! proof

Okay no . this picture for show only .
Dah mandi dah siap punya pasal tu pasal posing je lebeh
(Bathed already dressed already thats why posing only extra)

Cmon la ! you think i looked that tidy ah when i cook ?
You'll probably find strands of hair inside my mee goreng if i cooked looking like that lorrrr

This is how i actually look like jeng jeng !

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
dengan muka 24/7 stress aku lagi
(with my 24/7 stress face summore)

Okay so other than that , i've been eating well , sleeping well , resting well .

Of course la holidays !

I got my results today .

My GPA like ...............

sighs

Blaja mcm nk gila pun grades tk bagus

(Study like crazy also grades no good)

What up with that meng ?

haaais

2011-09-16T00:11:00.004+08:00

Lazy mood on
so let the pictures do the talking

Sempat -___-

Okay maybe i'll just talk abit
So obviously as you can see , im having my attachment now
been working at poi ching primary schhol
aunt's place was just a blk away so my lunchtime were spent there
my uniform made me look like a cleaner/waitress/security guard
and the fact that i wore BB cream only , made my face look so busok mcm tk mandi
but i got bath okay !
sighs

i got so many things to say but my eyes just wont allow me to stay awake any longer
i have to wake up at 5.30 everyday
i hate waking up so early haaais
what to do

2011-09-10T22:53:00.006+08:00

Okay , lemme just rant on what happened at work today

Some bitch pissed me off today

So it was raining heavily this afternoon right

Let's just make this very clear first

When its raining and you call for delivery , if you even got through with the order , you're one lucky asshole because when its raining , 50% who called in are not even able to place the order because the delivery stopped order so you cant order (duh!)

So stop freakin complaining !

Okay anw , this annoying girl called in .

At first i thought she was a nice person because she was being polite and stuffs

So fine

i was trying to give good service since she was so NAAAISE (puke !)

But the minute i told her that delivery time was about 90 mins , she started to big fuck man seriously !

I mean cmon ! 90 mins is the maximum time whats your problem !

So the conversation went like this

Polite me: Delivery time will be about one and a half hours

Bitch: Okay

Polite me: Okay , can i take your order ?

Bitch: Huhhh ? So long ah ?

Still polite me: Urmm yea . Because right now probably they're having alot of orders

Bitch: What do you mean by that ?

Still polite me: The fact that its raining heavily right now probably they require more time to deliver ma'm

FUCKING BITCH: SO WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME AND MY FOOD ?

STILL FUCKING POLITE ME: You have to understand ma'm , its for the safety of the riders . and 90 mins delivery time is the maximum time , not minimum time . Can i take your order now ?

FUCKING ANNOYING BITCH: So its raining and its for the rider's safety , lemme ask you , does it concern me ? They should hire some van or something whenever its raining ! you should feedback this to your manager or what

KEPALA HOTAK KAU NAK HIRE VAN ANTAR DELIVERY KAU PIKIR NI PASAR KEHAPA NAK HIRE VAN ?! KAU PIKIR MANAGER AKU NI APA ? FEEDBACK JE TROS OKAY GO AH ? KAU BODOH KE APA ? RIDER'S SAFETY DOESNT CONCERN YOU ?! THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM ?! KAU PENTINGKAN PEROT KAU DARI NYAWA ORANG KEHAPA SIA ?! KEBULUH SANGAT ?!

okay so i was freaking pissed alrdy . i mean seriously ? what the fuck is her problem ? the way she say it is as if she's so smart and she's miss-know-it-all but the fact is whatever she said is just plain STUPID

hire a van ?! goshhh , thats like the joke of the year sia seriously

Ah k , nnti company aku hire van , lepas tu kidnap mana2 customer kong aja mcm kau k ?

she's so rude you know !

And it just shows what type of person she is la . i mean , a normal person with hati perut would be understanding when we say its for the safety of the riders . she still can say it doesnt concern her .

GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHATS HAPPENING TO THE WORLD ?!

okay back to the conversation

Pissed off me: What do you mean it doesnt concern you ?

BITCH: I mean the more its raining , the more people would want to order right

PISSED OFF ME: YES , I'M NOT SAYING THEY'RE NOT DELIVERING IT TO YOU. I'M SAYING THEY MIGHT NEED MORE TIME TO DELIVER IT TO YOU.

FUCKING BITCH: I want the manager to call me now !

FUCKING PISSED OFF ME : FOR WHAT ?!

THE MOST ANNOYING BITCH EVER: BECAUSE I WANT MY FOOD. But can you take my order first ?

OH MY GAWWWWWD . IS SHE FUCKING KIDDING ME ? SPLIT PERSONALITY OR WHAT SIA ?!

You know , thats the thing about me . While i'm still being nice , i'm the nicest person you'll ever meet

Once she pissed me off , my tone started to change

Usually when i talk to my customers i'll be like , "okay , anything else for you ?" , "Your next order please, " , "sorry i cant hear you clearly,"

When i talked to her i was like , "ah what you want? what else? EH i cannot hear ah !"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

but serious ah , she's the worse bitch ever

i hope she chokes on her food man

ughhhh

manusia gini pon maseh hidop eh ? tsktsk

Okay , pardon me for my language

I'm usually not like this

But this girl wants to be a bitch with the wrong person at a wrong time

Probably if Mr.Period is not here , i might be able to tolerate with her nonsense

But sorry , wrong timing la bitch haaaais

Okay , lets side track

You know , there's a saying that if you encounter an egg with two egg yolks , you'll probably have twins in the future

Well guess what people !

It was afew days ago that i made myself some maggie because i was damn hungry

and then when i crack the egg open , two egg yolks appeared !

nah , prove for you . I was like OMG I'M GOING TO HAVE TWINS !

And then two days later , i wanted to make some scramble egg . The first egg i cracked , two egg yolks appeared . I was like OMG OMG OMG AM I REALLY GOING TO HAVE TWINS ?!

Hehehehehehhehe well i hope it'll come true !

But then i realised the egg yolks are different in size . One is bigger than the other .

It could mean that they're not identical twins

My twins would be one girl and one boy

Hehehehehehehhe what a theory XD

But mummy said it doesnt happen that easily . Usually its genetic .

So if i really were to have twins , that means my future husband have twins too !

awwww , siapakah agaknya itu ?

hehehehehe

2011-09-09T03:03:00.004+08:00

Can i have my bestfriend back please ?

Don't treat me differently anymore :'(

2011-09-08T20:22:00.006+08:00

So as you can see , i have a boyfriend now
Its not that i didnt publicize my relationship
He's just too small to be noticed

Well , my bofriend loves kissing my shoulders

Playing with my ears

Eat and watch tv with me

Lean on my shoulders

Take pictures of me

Take pictures with me

And loves holding hands with me

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
omg nah im just kidding !
He's my baby cousin and he loves me as much as i love him !
:)

Anyway , i've finally created Mr.Tumblr
I think you'll understand me better there
But no worries , i wont abandon Mr.Blogger
He'll still be here for me to rant on long stories and for you people to read about my AWESOME life
But i guess Mr.Tumblr describes my thoughts/feelings/personality best
Have fun reading both :)

2011-09-07T01:48:00.002+08:00

She pretends she's fine and that she has never been heartbroken , that she's a happy girl , eventhough it kills her inside .
She'll make sure nobody finds out that she cries herself to sleep , never make obvious that she's someone who gets jealous very easily .
She'll try her best to push everyone away if somebody tries to be there for her because she wants to show how strong she is to be standing alone when deep down she know she's not

Because she's so good at pretending , acting as if she doesnt care
She has such a big ego , worse than any other guys

Well , that girl is me .

2011-08-30T23:50:00.005+08:00

Okay so i'm back to updating .
This is for the sake of people who read my blog as bedtime stories
zzzz
It could mean im sucha boring person that i can drive people to sleep
OR
Im just so good that people need to read about my life before they go to sleep

0.0

Urmm i have something funny to talk about .
I dont know why embarrassing moments always happen to me
Can't be so coincidental right
Or maybe its just jinxed
KAOOO sedeh seh

K anw .
On the last day of puasa , which was yesterday lah .
Helped my ibu to cook those raya dishes
its so tiring and patience testing i'd rather run 10km man
K bedek la . i cant even run 2.4km now i think . probably i'll die not because im tired but because my fats shake too much when i run .

Okay anw , we thought we could finish cooking by breaking fast time since we started at 12pm .
But we couldnt get things done by then so we had nothing to eat for buka right .
thats when i tried calling Mcdelivery la .
But since i work there i know the number of queue calls at those peak hours .
So there's no point calling for delivery because even if we get through they'll say the delivery hub is having overwhelming orders so they stop taking orders for the moment
(K WTH FEELS SO AWKWARD TALKING ABOUT MY WORK HERE ZZZZ)

So in the end we decided to buy ourselves .
Note: Ourselves literally meant ME.ALONE.GO.BUY

It was already 6.20 and i havent bathed . so apa tunggu lagi kan , go bath la duhh
So i went out of the house around 6.45 only to realise i missed my bus by afew minutes
goshhh i hate that man
So i had no choice but to walk all the way to elias mall else i would never make it home on time
I feel like im shooting some horror movie la pls
because it was already getting dark and i had to walk at the most eerie place ever
So its like JALAN.CEPAT.JGN.PANDANG.BLKNG.OR.DIE

(Okay actually right whatever you've read for the past 6 paragraph or so , have nothing to do with what i wanted to blog about . So you've actually wasted 5 minutes of your life MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil*)

So i bought the bundle meal
And i swear that damn box is freakin irritating
and add on to that , i bought two additional meals
So imagine i had to carry that damn dinner box , 4 cups of drinks , and two additional meals .
addition to that , i had my wallet and my phone in my hands

After i paid and everything , it was already 7.13pm
i was contemplating whether to take bus or walk home
walking home means hello big trees or probably hello white figures with long hair
So i ended up taking the bus lorrr

So in the bus , since my hands were full , i even had a hard time tapping my ezlink card tsktsk
Once i sat , i placed the dinner box on my lap and held the drinks on my lap as well

Thats when i suddenly felt damp jeans
thats because the covers didnt fit properly so the drinks ended up spilling on my lap
at first it was just that area
so kakak2 pandai kan , nak try recapping the covers la .
FAILED
4 drinks on one hand is just not possible man

Thats when suddenly my panties became wet
i could feel water dripping in between the lines of my butt
i looked at my jeans and then i felt like crying
Goshh i look like some retard kid who pee-ed in her pants la please !
it was all so wet
i looked like i soaked myself in my pee

So apa lagi , once i alighted , i lietrally ran across the traffic light to get home
Not cool yo !

SIGHS

OHH , and selamat hari raya everybodeh !
First first baru siap step maintain je .

Lepas tu , prangai mcm babi . haaais

2011-08-20T18:26:00.002+08:00

GONE .

2011-08-19T17:42:00.002+08:00

You wanted me to text you

When i did , you replied like get-lost-you're-such-a-nuisance-i'm-fucking-busy kind of thing

What is it this time now ?

Switch character game again ?

whatever it is , im done .

you can play whatever games you want with your dear friend .

and i'll start playing games too .

pfffffft

2011-08-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

Well , i dont care if you tell me i look different in pictures .
Its not all about makeup my dear .
At least i have the guts to show people my bare face .
Well do you ?

Seriously , people should stop giving me a hard time .
i have enough problems on my own k thanks
pffft

Life is just so .. hard
Especially when you have to deal with people who have nothing better to do but make your life miserable
Goshhh

Anyway , have you guys ever looked through your parents' MP3 ?
Well i did .
And i almost fainted because i was too shocked .
My dad listens to songs that i myself dont even listen to .
I wonder who introduced him all those crap techno songs
haaaais

2011-08-15T10:05:00.004+08:00

Somebody who sees me every week now says i lost weight
hehehehehe i dont know if thats a good thing or not
it could mean that ive been stressed lately
OR
fasting month is awesome .
lets see where i'll go by the end of this month .
Oh how i wish i have a V-line face and a flatter tummy and slimmer arms so i wont have any more bruises whenever i go out with Feesah(girl cubit cubit-.-) *prays*

Anyway , guess what people ?
i shall make this blog a little more exciting like how it used to be (BWAHAHAHAH!)
its almost dead now anyways .

i went to work last week .
It was so early in the morning i was still half awake .
Someone familiar sat across me so i took a closer look .
Guess who ?
jeng jeng jeng ....

My Ex Boyfriend .

HA HA HA HA HA
should i laugh or should i cry ?
its not funny having one of the people who made history in my life , working at the same place as me .
Its been like yeaaaaaars . eventhough no feelings involved ,
i just cant stand the awkwardness .
Goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .

PS: Dear blogger.com , please be very thankful that you have one very loyal blogger . everyone else abandoned you and went with tumblr or onsugar or whatever , but i stayed with you for almost 5 years now . So please dont screw up my blog if not its goodbye to you also XOXO

2011-08-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

It annoys me when there's someone in school who took note of what i wear , what shoes i use , whether i wear makeup that day or not .

the worse thing is , "If one day you come to school with heavy makeup , i'm seriously gonna slap your face"

WTF i dont even wear eyeliner or mascara or lipgloss or whatever shit la please
The only thing i use is BB cream tu pon kau tak happy kehape ?
kau nak aku klua rumah muka mcm cina bacin tak mandi mcm muka kau jgk ?
haaaaais

this is why i miss secondary school
not because i miss that stupid prison school
i just miss the people i see everyday

cmon la my three favourite girls are waaay hotter than you
they dont even compare what they wear with me la pls
if you feel so intimidated with what i wear everyday or whether or not i wear makeup , i suggest you go find someone else to hang out with

the thing that pissed me off is its not that i go to school and dress up like some hotstuff bitch .
kau pikir aku tkde keje lain kehape pagi2 buta nk makeup2 pakai baju lawa2 hari2 .
aku gi sch nak blaja ngok !
bukan nk melawa menggatal kehape .
sedangkan klua jalan2 pun aku pakai BB cream je ape lagi kau nak ?
haaaaais stress ah hidop

On a lighter note , i finally cut my hair :)
My sister said i looked so chinese
I dont get it why ppl say i look chinese because i dont even have chinese blood
Today , i had two people who talked to me in chinese thinking i understand what the hell they were saying
does that mean if i look indian , ppl are going to speak tamil with me now ?
Goshhhhhhhhhhh what's ENGLISH for right -___-

(Pardon me . Red zone alert: the reason why i'm being so cranky hehehehe)

Tadaaaaaaa the new me :)

2011-08-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile since i laughed till i cried :)

2011-08-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

Today i went to school so sopan hehehe
Major exams in two weeks time .
Okay no , its next week actually OH GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i'm struggling here fyi
Not doing any better
things happening at home not helping either
but its just me , i always try to make things look okay
when i know too well that its not
i bet nobody knows what kind of hell i've been through this past few months
because i'm so good at pretending

Anyway ,
Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims out there :)

2011-07-31T08:51:00.001+08:00

I love Fridays <3

2011-07-23T01:31:00.002+08:00

Its not that i didnt realise things were changing
Its not that i didnt realise things were different
I just pretended not to .
It makes me think everything's going to be okay
Even though at the back of my mind i know everything is fucked up
Sometimes pretending makes me feel better
Or rather , i pretend too much ?

Whatever it is , i dont know how to make things right anymore
So whatever is going to happen next , i'll just live with it .
Even if it means losing someone who was once so precious to me

On a lighter note , did i mention i love fridays now ?
For what reasons ?
For me to know only :)

"If you're not all up for it , someone else does. And when that happens , don't even dare regret." - Unknown

Goodnight world :')

2011-07-21T04:57:00.002+08:00

Wanted to cry on my way to school this morning .
The bus kept swaying .
So i looked at the driver . And from the mirror , his eyes were shut close .
And then when he opened his eyes he started tapping the back of his head to keep himself awake .
And then his eyes were shut again .
SOMEBODY FREAKIN TELL ME HOW THE HELL SHOULD I NOT WORRY WHEN I'M IN A BUS WITH A SLEEPING DRIVER ?!
It was at the highway and he was kind of speeding .
But the bus kept swaying .
And the fact that i could see him shutting his eyes from the mirror , doesnt help at all
i thought i was going to die or something .
I prayed and prayed and prayed for my safety all the way frm pasirris to khatib .
Luckily nothing hapened to me .

Anw , i asked adilah how she lost all her weight .

"Hari hari aku doa ah."

Mampos , jawapan gerek pe adilah ?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2011-07-19T21:21:00.003+08:00

The two souls i've known for more than a decade .
What's there to explain ?
Haaais

2011-07-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

Expectations:
'Hey how are you?'

'No im not good . im not okay . everything is so fucked up . i felt like running away from everything . i thought i was strong . i thought i was happy . but actual truth is im not . i wanted to throw everything away . everything is crashing down on me . No , im not doing good at all :'( '

Reality:
'Hey how are you?'

'Heyy ! i'm fine :D '

2011-07-17T08:40:00.003+08:00

Everyone's too busy being caught up with their own lives , they dont have time for each other anymore .
Including me :'(

It hurts me knowing that my time now is just for school and work .
To the extend that being able to have dinner with my mum at Macdonalds is like a one in a million pleasure for me .
I realised i've taken advantage of too much things .
Because right now , just being able to have a simple meal means alot to me .

I'm sorry , to the people i've neglected .
But i guess it wont make any much difference though .
My presence dont mean that much anyway .
Till then , takecare :)

2011-07-13T16:44:00.004+08:00

No words to express how i felt when i saw As on my sheet grades .
Alhamdullillah :')
Hopefully i see the same thing for my Final exams hehehehe

Anyway just an update from me
I'm sorry if my blog now is not as fun anymore (cheh self-praise -.-)
I used to blog about the happy things that happened in my life
Now everything is reversed :(

But of course , its not that my life now is so miserable that everything is a pain in the ass .
It just happened that whenever i blog , something bad happened .
And when something bad happened , i blogged .
So yea , thats what you get for the past couple of posts down there .

So urmm to bring back joy and excitement to my blog once again , i'll show you a picture .
Major fail sia this one .
Was at loss for words when i saw this in facebook .
My friends still can tag me haaaais .

Awesome or what i tonggek like that HAHAHAHAHA -.-

Okay now , a better version .
Everybody meet my coursemates :)

2011-07-07T00:46:00.002+08:00

Multiple of messages and missed calls on my phone .
Only to find out after work that my mum is admitted in the hospital .
You dont know how that feels .

2011-07-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

Mummy is sick right now .
Accompanied her to the clinic just now the moment i reached home from school .
Brought my Biology notes while waiting for her to get consulted .
Without realising , i actually fell asleep sitting down with my lecture notes on top of me .
I only woke up when i realised i was drooling away , painting droplets of saliva on my notes .
How disgusting and embarrassing can that be ?
Goshhhh , and i call myself a girl -___-
Anyway , Get well soon mummy love :')

I'm literally drained out of energy .
Mentally , emotionally , physically .
I don't know whats wrong with me ?
Saya nak nangis ah byeeeeeeeeeee

2011-07-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

I thought my life was perfect , i was wrong .
Sighhhhhhhhhs .
problems everywhere , at home in school at work .
I'm at my worse stage right now .
Felt like running away from everything .
Oh godd , give me the strength :'(

2011-07-03T21:22:00.003+08:00

Awak saya awak saya awak saya . Awkward 0.0

Anw this song is stuck in my head . So ketinggalan zaman -___- but love the lyrics !
hehe cutee

2011-06-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

I should just disappear .

Goodbye .

2011-06-28T20:36:00.002+08:00

I'm so fickle minded , always unsure of what i want .
I'm so selfish , i push people away but i never want to let them go .
Sometimes i feel that the problem lies within me .
I feel that i'm being so unfair , always untrue to the people around me .

New environment , new friends .
I don't know if this feeling was right or wrong .
But i know , i didnt want this to go away .
And right now , i'm wondering whether working was a right choice or not .
Oh gosh :(

2011-06-23T02:21:00.001+08:00

Just got off from work .
was so hungry so i bought Macdonalds before heading home .
Macdonalds at 2 in the morning ah Syahirah .
Say goodluck to my weight :)

2011-06-20T14:57:00.002+08:00

I've been working night shift almost everyday .
so shagged :(
And Singaporeans should know that , customer service officers are humans too .
we're not your fucking dogs so stop treating us like one .
yesterday , i had so many customers screaming at me .
i dont understand whats their problem ah seriously .
its so late at night , i dont understand where they get the energy to scream at people like we're their slaves .
Everyday after work , i'll complain to mummy how horrible humans can be sometimes .
it wont kill you to say thank you or the least you can do is , be polite .
its basic courtesy people ! gosh .
mummy has been enduring with my rantings every single day , hehehe sorry ibu !
but oh well , this is life :)

2011-06-13T00:27:00.002+08:00

OOOO MUSCLES HAHAHAHAHAHA

okay , i know i've been neglecting alot of things .
especially mummy :(
kesiaan dia .
this morning while i was getting ready to go to work , dad came into my room and sat on my bed while he watched me made myself up .
he just sat there and didnt say a word .
until i looked at him through the mirror then he started talking .
he said , last night mummy talked to him
about how life has changed now that me and my sister has started working
she told him how empty the house felt when all three of us went to work
but my mummy is always a strong and independent woman .
she didnt complain , because she knew her daughters are growing up .
she knew that we're all moving up to our next phase of life
but i just want her to know that eventhough we're not at home that often now , we still want her to pamper us like her little babies because we love her no matter what :)

i love my mummy and i dont want her to feel lonely :'(
but there's really nothing i can do about it :(
she told me how excited she was to fetch me and my sister from our workplace today
haha so cute
and then i'm like so extra manja with her now la pls XD
jalan je , nk pimpin tgn .
dudok je , baring kat bahu .
org tgk pun meluat gaknye
but who cares man !
i love my mummy and that's all that matters :)

ohhhhh , yesterday morning was nice and warm .
don't you think so ?
heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

2011-06-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

Say hello to my pimple eye
damn annoying seriously -.-
makes me look like im 24/7 winking at people
zzz

anw , i have a confession .
I'm employed !
Hehehehe
i dont know if i can manage my time well since im working and schooling at the same time
but i know i'll survive somehow
i dont even know how the hell i got the job when i was stuttering the entire time during the interview .
just my luck ah i guess
but still , amin :)
at least i have some personal income to back me up if my weekly allowance is not enough
because i realised i spend more now
not to mention the multiple courses i have to attend prior to dentistry
and then i have to pay for my dental uniform -.-
sucks right ?
oh well , at the end of the day ,
its still all about the money money money
we always need the money money money
HAHAHAHAHA -.-

2011-06-02T20:03:00.003+08:00

Have you guys seen Gita Gutawa lately ?
i swear she's damn beautiful . (okay , thats what i think)
DROOLS MAN .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH -.-

makes me want to do loose curls too .
but my hair's not long enough :(
im planning to do some highlights when i go to the saloon very soon
i wanted cool colours like red or purple ! or even blue !
my mom did purple highlights before but the results didnt really show
so im still contemplating whether to do it or not :/
okay anw !

this oneeeeee ! hehe , so pretty omg !

ohhhhh !
and today , i sat next to someone who looks just like him

Hehehehehehe !
cuci mata for awhile
lol !

2011-05-27T20:49:00.005+08:00

The feeling when i just want to lay down with my mom in the living room , watching American Idol , and start webcamming like i dont give a damn about how messy i look
Trust me , i love today :))))))))))

2011-05-26T21:33:00.002+08:00

Today ,
I almost missed my stop when i took the train home .
Because my mind was too busy thinking and wondering what and where things went wrong .
Today ,
I kept forcing myself to yawn .
Because i didnt want to make it obvious to the people around me that i'm actually crying .
Today ,
My heart broke into pieces , all over again .
Because i was jealous and its really killing me inside
Today ,
I reassured myself that all guys are the same .
Because the ones i've met , never proved or showed me there's a right man .

2011-05-23T14:06:00.002+08:00

I was very happy today .
But something was said to me
And the minute i read it , it breaks me .
But its okay :')
I'll just do what i do best
Which is pretending nothing happened eventhough it kills me inside

But on a lighter note , some things made me smile today
And here's one of the reasons why :)

2011-05-21T02:16:00.002+08:00

I'm totally totally drained out .
This by far , has been the worst week ever i swear !
I'm seriously going to sleep my way through the weekends
Heaven i tell you !
Hehehehe

2011-05-16T16:32:00.004+08:00

Today , i made myself laugh :D

Jeng jeng ! my failed webcam attempt XD

I feel so stupid la please .
How the hell can i freeze my pose that long righhht
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA MAJOR FAIL SIA this one
zzzz -.-

And my dad did something at my facebook

HE POKED ME !
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
-__________________-

2011-05-09T19:22:00.003+08:00

I haven't been well mentally and emotionally lately
But there are afew things that happened today
And somewhat , it did made me smile once again
Firstly , i ended school early today .
And then my Lifebook finally came

And then i received a letter from my close friend .
A brother-figure to me .
The only person in this world who calls me Scar .
What a weird nickname right but oh well
He has been away for quite some time now
I hope he comes back real quick so i can have my listening ear once again
And please dont get me wrong again this time
Dont assume
He's just my brother-figure friend
The type of relationship where his mom talks/texts with me kind of thing
So yea , im happy to know that he's doing fine in there
Come back soon please :')

And lastly , daddy fetch me from school today
Rode his bike and i swear my butt bone damn painful
And i wonder how people can ride the bike for so long
This is what you call , MENGADA
Take bus and mrt , complain leg pain
Take bike , complain butt pain
ZZZZZZ

I'm so shagged
Really
Probably because of the weather
I'm falling asleep too easily now :(

2011-05-08T01:13:00.002+08:00

Good job Syahirah
You've hurt people , again .
Yeah , continue living like this .
Because one day karma will slap your face real hard
And when that day comes , dont even dare cry
Dont even dare say you regret
To you , nobody seems to suit your needs
Thats why you always take advantage of the good guys
Then start cursing and ranting saying guys are all the same whenever the bad ones make you cry
You're just so immature , thinking that the world revolves around you
That you think you can hurt people as and when you like
Serve you right that everyone is leaving
One by one .
Yuppp , well done . Just continue livng your life like this
Because you'll end up with nothing at the end of the day .
Nothing .

2011-05-07T01:56:00.004+08:00

While i'm still being nice , you better get your fucking acts straight
The only reason why i'm being nice to you is because i know you're gonna fucking hate it when i fucking tell you in your fucking face to fucking get lost
Just so you know , i had fucking enough from your nonsense
Stop bugging me .
Stop acting stupid like you don't know i don't want to have anything to do with you anymore
Stop thinking that there's still hope that you might have me one day because err excuse me , thats not going to happen
So before i fucking hate you more , you better stop all these right now
Stop making me look like a bad bitch
Because your friends are already starting to think i'm one
I have my pride and i know i'm not that kind of girl who disrespect guys
I'm not that kind of person who humiliates guys in front of their friends
But at the rate you're going , it's like you're pushing me off the cliff
And my patience level with you is already extreme
So if you don't want to see me blow up , you better fucking leave me alone
Seriously , you deserve so much better
Not me .
I'm always thankful that you're nice to me but i've never appreciated you
I know karma will hit me straight in my face one day but i'm sorry , i just cant see myself with you
I'm really sorry but you're in my hate list now

Yours Sincerely ,
The Extreeeeeeeeeeeeeeemely Annoyed Girl

How i wish i could let it out to him like this
But thats the thing about me
I got so caught up with my feelings . I start to get annoyed . I start to rant .
But in the end , i dont say out loud whatever i wanted to say
I kept it to myself and then suffer mental depression on my own

I just cant see myself hurting others with these kind of words when actually i really want
them know what i really feel inside

And then sometimes i wonder if i'm just a nice person or a hypocrete one -.-
FML

2011-05-01T02:58:00.002+08:00

Obviously i cant live quietly right thats why im blogging again
hehehee
and no , i didnt widen my eyes
just that im wearing enlargement contacts zzzz -.-

So anywaaay ,
i've been using some peeling cream lately
it peels off the dead skin on the outer layer of the face
and then it makes your face glow
results will only show after 2 weeks upon usage
and i'm still at Day 4
FOUR.
D A Y F O U R people !

i swear the process is killing me
It itches damn badly
and the feeling is like having someone slap you when you have sunburn all over
urmm , i should say its a really unpleasant feeling ah like duhhh ! -.-

and in school i kept tapping my face with my index finger because it itches badly !
like urmm having 10 freakin mosquitoes sucking your blood like they're drinking slurpee
and the fact that i cant scratch my face because it will leave scars is just ..
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDD :(((((
so everyone in my class knows that i'm actually using this peeling cream
my malay friends call me girl muka gatal now
HAHAHAHHA wtf sounds so wrong

and then i have people asking me things like , 'why your face everytime itchy one?'
and i was like , 'err no not everytime . im just under treatment for the moment.'
*STEP GEREK FACE*
pffft

BUT !
the good thing is , its slowly showing results already
like my face becoming fairer now
hehehehehehe
nak jadi snow white mahhhhhh ^^

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA , i'm so full of nonsense
dahlaaah , byeeeeeeee
im going JB later wooh !

2011-04-27T20:24:00.003+08:00

Sorry i've been neglecting my blog lately
I just couldnt find time or energy to switch on the computer like how i used to
I'll be drained out once i reach home from school everyday
I guess i'll update more once my LIFEBOOK is delivered to me *wiggles eyebrow*

So anyway , i have so much things to share
Too many things happened
like how i saw Mr.sunset on my way to school one morning
and then how i accidentally stepped on some makcik's foot in the bus with my heel pumps
and how i've been ranting about how shagged i am everyday
and how i got jealous when i see my bestfriend finally talks to a pretty girl
(thats why you shouldnt have guy bestfriends -.- especially people like me who gets jealous very easily but pretend nothing happen but oh well i shouldnt be a selfish bitch just because he doesnt talk to me that much now zzz)
hehee

School is fine i guess ?
All i see everyday is science science science and more sciences
but i somehow like my lab work
like spending 3 damn hours filling and carving one small decayed tooth
mata juling pun awesomeeee ahh
but its fun ^^

anyway , im apologising if i dont reply to messages or answer calls
(ape lagi facebook -___-)
its just that my school's network sucks big time , i cant be bothered to check my phone all the time
and besides , im thinking whether i should throw my phone in the longkang or not
so yea

I'M LIVING WELL EATING WELL STUDYING WELL
i'm happy with my life now
and its not as if there are people reading my blog daily so i should just live quietly
Goodbye :)

2011-04-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

His voice . I kept hearing them
His presence . I cant get them off my mind
Who's going to call me darling now ?
Who's going to act like my boyfriend anymore ?
I still cant believe what just happened , i really cant :'(
But everything happens for a reason .
We love you , but He loves you more .
You will always be in my heart , Abg Iwan .

2011-04-17T20:23:00.001+08:00

Say hello to my new life :)

2011-04-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

SHS Freshman Orientation ?
Boring nye masyaallah .
So i tried searching for any nice looking guys for me to at least cuii at .
But NONE caught my eyes haaais
(or maybe i was just too busy dozing off 90% of the time pffft)

Shagged .
Blisters all over my feet .
2 Hours bus ride home .
I'm too exhausted to do anything now .

Anddddd ,
School starts at 9 on Monday oh goddddddddddd !

Goodnight :)

2011-04-14T00:41:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MUKKKKK !

2011-04-13T21:28:00.005+08:00

Remember the famous smile girls ?
It was a trend to smile like that HAHAHAHAHHA
(senyum ketap bibir sikit !)

We've grown up .
We've gone through so many things that nobody can ever imagine .
I'm always the Mother-figure among these girls .
Always nagging , babbling , always the angriest when guys make these girls cry .
Because i care .
I know we dont show it like how other girls does with their girlfriends
We dont hug or kiss casually(EWWW! cant imagine the four of us do that) or talk on the phone for hours
we dont say we love each other .
But that's the charm of our friendship :)
Because deep inside we know no one can seperate us .

We dont call each other bitch like how some girls do (eventhough i understand its for fun and its a way to show your love for your girlfriends . i find it stupid though -.-)
And trust me , for the past four years we're together , we've never fought or quarrel with each other (Unless those immature arguments like how we teased Rad's bra strap until she merajok and dont want to talk to us . And how me and rafikah merajok because Rad and Syaf only come to school once or twice a week in Sec2)

In other words , the only thing we do is MERAJOK . and then the next minute we'll be laughing our ass off talking about things like this

We're the meanest people when we start talking
Because whenever we talk , we'll start gossiping
We'll give weird people in school nicknames from RASPUTIA(Norbit's wife) to CAVEMAN to CHOI to GIGS and even MUKA KOTOR (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA the meanest nickname ever)
But again , eventhough its mean to the extend that we were once called the four bitches , thats the charm we have that kept our friendship going .

We had so many haters that once , our names were written in the toilet cubical
It said "Syafiqah , Radiah , Syahirah , Rafikah SUX BIG TIME"
We were so pissed and angry that we found out who wrote it in less than a minute and confronted her .
Thinking about it now is so embarrassing because seriously , there's nothing to be so angry about .
(yelaaa , kakak kakak baru masok secondary school prangai ader sikit MAOT)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
i can continue the whole day if i start reminiscing our memories together

But , we're always covering up for each other .
Like how we got caught by Mr Paul Ng in Sec1 for wandering and exploring around school during free period .
And do you know , the teacher who was taking our class for relief got sacked because of the four of us ?
(Oh goddddd)
And then how the three of them cover me up when i accidentally farted out loud in the field when the archery instructor was giving a briefing .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
so to put it all together , i'm just saying , i miss these girls :)

2011-04-09T02:44:00.002+08:00

I'll be helping out at my aunt's stall at some carnival later
and i have to wake up at 7 but i'm still facebook stalking

k byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
(anyway , the picture has no link to my post at all)

2011-04-07T02:46:00.003+08:00

It was a waste that Radiah had to work on that day but ,
THANK YOU KORANG FOR THE "SUPRISED" BELATED BIRTHDAY GIFT :D

Okay actually , its not really a suprise la because i knew about it from the very beginning
I just pretended not to know because i dont want to spoil their plan
Its not my fault that i have a quick sense when something is just not right
and its not my fault either that Rafikah was just BAD at planning suprise events
zzzz

Okay what happened was , we were all supposed to meet at tamp around 2
Rafikah had to go for her speech day rehearsal so we decided to go and eat before we head off to that fcking stupid school together
around 1.20 while i was still doing my hair syafeekah called me , somewhat feeling grumpy
she told me raf is forever lateeeeeeeeee !
i was like , why are you so early ? we're supposed to meet at 2
and then she told me raf told her to meet earlier
so i was like hmmmmm , why would they meet earlier when our plan was to meet at 2 ?

so anyway , Raf being raf , she came at 3.15pm when she clearly assured us she wont be late
MACAM PAHAAAM -.-
so in the end we went to tamp1 because i was craving for Auntie Anne's

OH GODDDDDDDDDDD . this is heavennnnn i tell you !

okay back to the story ,
in front of Auntie Anne's , that was when the drama started
I SAW A MARRIED MAN WITH TWO KIDS (he used to be a friend of my parents) HOLDING HANDS WITH ANOTHER WOMAN !!

*JAW DROPS*

i was being like some makcik kepo la pls . i kept turning back to look at him to double cnfrm that it was really him
i swear i cant believe my eyes
i thought i was hallucinating but i was assured again that whatever happened was REAL because i made syafeekah look at both of them
i made her tell me that they're really holding hands

i was speechless man i swear !

and then us being us , we started talking about marriage
like how annoying guys can be
i think the only word guys have in their dictionary is , MIANG !
zzzz

but anyways , my girls were telling me that they're scared to get married because they're scared something like that would happen to them
-.-
i cant blame them
because we just saw a married man holding hands with another woman right in front of our fcking eyes
haaaaais
life is just .. sad and unfair :(

so anywaaay , went back to school but we couldnt enter
fcuk that school ah seriously ! forever pissing me off
and while i was pissed off , someone had to poke my belly from the back
WTF ?!
me and my girlfriends couldnt stop laughing because it happened to be a senior of mine who poked me
zzzzzz
why must poke ?!?!?!?!
tak paham aku
and then he msged me , 'wahhh you so boncit eh!'
where to put my face ? FML -.-

so anw after which , headed to tampines again to eat at Seoul garden
but headed to tamp1 for awhile
that was when syafeekah left us to get a birthday cake for me
i knew about it
i just can sense it . hehe
but i wanted to test rafikah because seriously , she's just bad at doing suprises

i asked her where syaf went off to
she told me she met her boyf for awhile
i was like yaaaa right ! its not as if her boyf doesnt know us that they have to meet secretly
HAHAHAHAHAAHA omg serious ahh so funny

then before entering Seoul garden , Raf opened her giant bag in front of me
thats when i saw my presents inside
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH wtf ahh !
i couldnt stop laughing so i had to tell syaf that actually i knew everything alrdy
zzzzzzz

but i still had fun
thank you korangggggggggggggg <3
we should go out again . and this time , no excuses for radiah anymore hmmpf !

2011-04-04T03:14:00.002+08:00

I'm so fat now (Look at my tummy . POWER SIA !)
I feel so heavy and i dont feel comfortable wearing my clothes anymore
And since i go out everyday these past few days , i had the hardest time picking out what to wear
In fact i dont care about what looks good on me anymore , i'm more concern about what's comfortable on me
Which is bad because this means i've gained weight . A G A I N !
this sucks maaayn :(

but come to think of it , i'm the happiest girl on earth when there's food !
so i just cant help it
i promise i'll lose weight once school starts
heeeeeeeeeee :)

but still , eventhough i kept emphasizing and reminding myself to go on a diet , i cant help myself because of the temptations

These are heavennnnnnn i swear ^^V

You know what , Malaysia has the coolest , awesomest Cadbury chocolates ever !
And they taste damn good i tell you !
(another reason why i love going Malaysia)
but anywaays , i'm forever talking about food
FML ah seriously

LOSE WEIGHT AH SYAHIRAH SERIOUSLY ! YOUR BODY DAMN ANNOYING NOW OKAY
hahahahahahahahah wtf ?!
bye ah !

2011-04-03T04:56:00.003+08:00

While sweeping the floor , aku kentot kentot wohoooo ^^

very disgusting yet so refreshing

nothing feels as good as letting out all those unwanted gases from my tummy

and then sometimes i wonder if i'm really a girl or not . FML

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

anywaaay , i've been neglecting myself lately

and now i end up with a bushy eyebrow

FML again

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

hopefully i get back to my senses soon

and start grooming myself again like i used to

or i'll end up looking like a pinoy maid

and whats with Singapore nowadays mayn ?!

I'm actually very annoyed that there's too many Pinoys living here

I'm not being racist but cmon man !

if the only thing you guys do is live here and take up our very limited land space then at least i could deal with that

but what's up with taking our jobs too man ?!

okay actually i have nothing against the foreigners la

Because they're like literally E V E R Y W H E R E now

you go mcdonald you see foreigner working

you go shopping you see foreigner working

you go toilet you see foreigner working

you go eat you see foreigner working

and the worse thing is , you see a hot guy and you think he's malay , but he'a actually a Pinoy

damn it !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA

and there goes my imagination again

You know guys lately , they have this disease where they are allergic to "HOT GIRLS" ?

they like cannot see hot girls you know

they see HOT girls only right , they start flirting

So i was just thinking to myself ,

what if one day a guy walks up to a girl he's interested in and ask for her number

especially if you're a matrep

then the situation would be like , ehemmm

'Girl , ader number ?'

'I am soRRy . I am PRRom the Philippines . Pinoyy PoRR LaiPP ! (Pinoy for life)'

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

okay whatever

thats so funnehhhhhhhhhh

HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

i can die laughing ahhh

bye ah

2011-03-31T01:52:00.003+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

i feel so bad nowww :'(

can i cryy ?

my intentions were sincere but im afraid i might be a disturbance to a lovely couple

i was just saying hi to my old friend

its not my fault that his girlfriend was using his account at that point of time

right ?

she wont get mad right ?

they wont fight because of me right ?

noooooooo :'(

oh godddd , kill me la seriously

i'm forever a nuisance to people

forever a burden

forever a disturbance to other people

forever making other people's lives miserable

i feel so bad nowww ughhhhhh

hate this ahhhhhh ! :'(((((((

2011-03-29T23:41:00.005+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS to me wooh !
I finally went for a ...

R U N ! !

haha ! went jogging with mom , aunt and cousin at bedok reservoir
we were too full after eating sup tulang at S11 just now so we decided to go for a run
i ran quite far okayyy
i think about 10km . or lesser . i dont know . but i felt like i ran more than 10km la
chehhh like real only ah me !
napfa test 2.4km only i feel like dying zzzz

BUT ! i was sweating really badly
so that's all that matters
it doesnt matter how far i run , as long as my heartbeat is fast enough to burn my calories
huahua
okay whatever
the point is , I RAN OKAY PEOPLE ! I FINALLY EXERCISE ! yayyyyyyy me :D

and my picture looks like im dancing to my blog song
wooh !
do you love my current song ?
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my current song
awesomeeee :D

k bye i need to bath im so sweaty and smelly now XD

2011-03-29T00:27:00.003+08:00

I dont think anybody recognises me anymore :(
Was at E!hub watching movie with mummy and saw my secondary schoolmates
I was waiting for my mum to finish pee-ing so i was just standing in front of the mirror looking at myself , my face , playing with my hair and next to me was my schoolmate
she was doing her hair too
we were looking at the same mirror so obviously we saw each other
i know her but since she didnt acknowledge me , i cant be bothered(that's my character btw)
we were like staring at the mirror for 5 minutes then i couldnt stand being awkward any
longer so i walked off . and then she turned and look at me and asked , are you from PRCS ?
and then i was like YEAAAAAAAAH MAN ! (finally -.-)
and then her friend(my schoolmate too) came out from the toilet and she told her friend ,
'ehh , she from our school ya know . remember her?'
and then she was like , 'errr who sia?'

Dear syahirah , your life is very sad ya know :'(
even your own schoolmate forgot you even exist . And the fact that we're from the same batch made me feel worse . EVEN WORSE , our class used to be next to each other :(((((((

but its okay , i somehow knew this would happen . like what i said before ,
i might vanish from everyone's mind that i actually existed in this world
so yea , i should get used to it now . HAHAHAHAH WTF

okay actually i wanted to update about yesterday
Me , my sis and my cousin went to East Point mall to watch the 3rd round of Anugerah auditions
We were there since 1pm and we stood for like hours and hours until we finally gave up and went to the third level to sit
And lemme tell you something , my stomach has been acting up lately
i swear its annoying
while watching people sing , my stomach felt so painful i wanted to cry
but i had to maintain because there were cameras everywhere
imagine if i do my I-WANT-TO-FUCKING-SHIT-RIGHT-NOW face when there's a damn camera right in front of me
i might even go on tv with that kind of cramped face
urrmmmmmmmm ?

so , i wanted to pee badly
Went to the toilet alone since im independent enough (HAHAHAHAH duhh)
while pee-ing , i was like , why does my pee feel so thick this time ?
i looked into the toilet bowl and guess what ?
i saw brown semi-liquid substance like expired coffee or something
and i didnt even realise i shit because my taik cair okay
disgusting yet so painful

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
okay go puke now go . i know the description not needed XD

so yea , that was my disgusting stomach pain story
and you know what ? i hate shitting at public places okay !
eventhough the toilet standards and hygiene in Singapore is clean enough , i really hate shitting in public toilets
i just feel that i dont clean myself clean enough because there's no soap or water or sometimes even not enough tissue
and then i'll end up leaving the toilet with wet pants because i had to use the toilet bowl water to clean my ass
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
okay i should stop now i'm being very disgusting today SORRY !

so , the participants of anugerah was urmm average ?
only 2 or 3 out of the 52 people could actually move the crowds
then there's this mat salleh looking guy , oh godddddddd
trust me , i had my eyes on him the entire time
and then i saw afie my friend . didnt know he entered the competition too
And he sat next to the mat salleh looking guy OH MY GODDDDD

so apart from having my eyes on the good-looking mat salleh guy (who melts me when he sings eventhough he forgot his lyrics daaaamn !), there's one contestant who looks like my sister's ex boyfriend from his side profile . but this one more handsome and cuter la
And then when he began to sing to Yang by Wali Band , he was too cute when he started dancing and i didnt realise that my mouth was wide opened looking at him
and guess what people ? when i had my mouth opened wide , the camera actually zoomed at the three of us
WHAT THE FUCK ?

I'm always embarrassing myself in front of alot of people .
Is this like jinx or something ?
FML ah seriously

And then besides that , there's this girl whom i really really really sympathise with
okay , she really dolled herself up beautifully
but if you ask me , its abit over because she looked like she was going for her prom
but she looked awesome !
so anywaay , she picked Hey ladies by rossa
i was like ? urmmm thats a very hard song to sing
especially when you have to do it live ! mind you its a competition
so when the intro of the song started she was like dancing and dancing like fuhh !
joget maot punyaa
so we , the crowds , started cheering because it was a fun song
and then when she started singing , she couldnt get her keys right and then screwed up everything
EVERYTHING .
and then she requested if she could repeat but they ignored her so its like , she's standing there at the stage with her song on but she's not singing
and then the judges comments were so hateful and hurtful if i were her i would have broke down right there
i felt like going to the stage and give her a hug or something because if it were me , i wouldnt have that confidence to even look at myself at that point of time
but she did . she didnt cry nor did she run away
so i guess urmmm , yeahh
HAHA i dont know what to say but that girl was really pitiful la
we call her the prom girl
okay whatever

after which , went to MALAYSIA WOHOOO
okay la not wohooo
i hate going Malaysia
i always feel insecure because im always paranoid that someone might just grab me from behind and point a knife on my neck or something like that
okay whatever
but its fun because i get to spend anything i want without thinking whether or not things are expensive
MUAHAHAHAHA

we catched a movie at City Square
Citer Dalam botol
urmmm , ITS AWESOMEEEEEEE ! not -.-
i hated the movie because its too slow and quiet
its not fun watching a movie when the theatre is quiet for the whole entire movie okay
and there's not a single music at all oh my god i can die watching the movie ah seriosuly
i'll rate it 2/10

BUT ! there's a BUT okay people

its a good movie for those gays out there
a form of pengajaran to not fucking cut your THINGGGG off to lead a love life with a guy -_____-
because you'll end up not being able to get married nor people will know how to bath you when you pass away later (if you're a Muslim)
people will not be able to identify you as a man or a woman
and your life would just get more miserable day by day
like urmm , how you would disappoint your friends and ESPECIALLY your parents
and then like how much money you wasted just to cut your THINGGGGG off
and then how your gay partner would leave you at the end of the day
and that everything you've sacrificed for is just for a useless sicko who wants to sleep with more guys
and then how you'll have no more desire for a girl when you eventually found someone who really loves you

so yea urmmmmmmmmm thats about it
a good lesson to gay wannabees out there
so if you think you're becoming a gay anytime soon , or already a gay , or already an extreme gay who's about to cut off your THINGGGG ,
then i greatly recommend you to watch the movie
If not , then dont even bother watching
But if you already cut your THINGGGG off , then urmm , there's no turning back for you . just live your life

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH i am so annoying righhhhht ! zzzz
bye

2011-03-27T01:25:00.003+08:00

Was telling my sister what happened when the four of us took this ride
Remembering what actually happened made me laugh like some crazy girl

Its GX-5 so since there's only four of us , obviously the centre seat is empty
on the far end on the right side was me and Rafikah next to me .
On the far end on the left side was Syafeekah and Radiah next to her
So the procedure was , when we reached the top , the signal lights will turn frm orange to green
And when it does , the centre person must press some button then the thing will go off
So since it was Rad's birthday , we made her press the button because we thought the person pressing the button would have more pressure .

But eventually , me and my girls are Maintain people
So as we set off from the ground , we looked really calm and cool yo !
but when it started to pull us back higher and higher (mind you its 50 metres high) ,
we started to make noises (except for rafikah)
Radiah started mumbling to herself .
The only thing i could hear from syafeekah was 'omg korang , my feets became jelly !'
And Rafikah , urmmmmm *crickets*
She was so quiet as if she was not there with us
But she held my hand so tightly as if she wanted to strangle some snake or something
And me , obviously i was busy laughing but deep down i was so nervous i thought i was going to fall and land on those trees below me like some pontianak la please

Okay common sense right , if you're the person pressing the button , you'll at least give some warning to your friends like , 'okay guys im pressing the button now' or 'okay lets go !' or something like that right ?

so when we reached the top , we were waiting for the signals light to turn green
The minute it turns green , the next thing i know we were falling down from the sky into the river already
NO WARNING OKAY PEOPLE !
waliaoooo Rad -.-

It was super fast and cooling and obviously we were screaming for our dear lives
(except for the silent Rafikah)
So when the thing almost came to a stop , Rafikah finally shouted
like literally shouted -.-
I was like , the whole time i didnt even hear you flinch and then when its almost over you finally shouted ? -______-

BUT ITS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !
i sweaaaaaaaaaaaar !
SUPER AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
and i miss my girls badly :(
boooooooooo !

Anywaaay , this is awesome too !

2011-03-25T01:27:00.002+08:00

I'm thankful that there are still people who think of me
Who cared for me
Who took note of what i like and dont like . What i want and dont want .
I'm always rejecting , denying this and that
And that character of mine makes me look like a bad person
It makes me look pitiful that I'm always hurting people
It makes me look like i'm taking advantage of everyone's kindness
People put in effort to impress me but i seemed not to care
It's not that i dont care .
It's not that i cant be bothered
I just , just dont need all these kindness
Because it makes me feel indebted
When someone does something nice to me , eventhough they were sincere ,
I always felt that i owe them big time
And people should know , the thing i hated most , is to feel indebted
Because when i feel indebted , i feel like i need to do something in return
And i know i have nothing to offer

Im always apologising
Apologising for being an ass
But people should know too that , i hate feeling sorry
Because i know i did nothing
But i said sorry over and over again because its basic manners

So please , just let me live my life independantly .

2011-03-24T14:18:00.005+08:00

HI PEOPLE !
guess what i found in my computer folder ?
jeng jeng !

3 years ago:

(Syafeekah's awesome editting skills plus heart designs HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA)

5 months ago:

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHA !

and then probably in 5 years time , you'll see us with pregnant bellies .
hehehhee
Amaciam korang ? nak pregnant sama2 tak ?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH wtf

time flies but my friends are still awesome !
now i miss my three favourite :((((((((((

2011-03-23T14:52:00.004+08:00

GUESS WHAT PEOPLE !
i finally got my nachos wohoooo ^^
TWICE okay . so happy .
I was at bugis and then i saw this lady holding the nachos plastic thingy
and then she's like licking the cheese
And then i was like OH MY GOD IBU ! I SAW NACHOS ! WHERE DID SHE BUY THEM ?!?!
We were walking walking . the rest were looking at stuffs but my eyes were searching for nachos only .
And then i finally saw the shop ! and it was 3 bucks okay !
The minute i dipped the nachos into the cheese i was like .. SHIT MAN !
the cheese damn diluted la . And it tasted like plain water with cheese flavour
:((((((((((((((
but its okay . at least dapat hilangkan rasa kempunan
and then the second time was yesterday
was at KK hospital then went to the 7ELEVEN store . the things there damn expensive okay !
the brownies i always buy cost $1.60 at normal stores but they sell it at $2.20 there
i was like babbling like some makcik2 about how expensive this and that when i saw the nachos machine .
and then i literally shouted 'NACHOS!' in the store and everyone stared at me
-________-
so i got my perfect nachos at $2.50 only okay ! the cheese was warm and thick
woahhhhhh . heaven ^^

And then i told my mom
If in the future I'm pregnant , My husband would have the hardest time in the world . i swear !
My cravings are seriously so extreme
sedangkan tak mengandung je kempunan macam2 . imagine if i'm pregnant -___-
so moral of the story ,

Dear future husband , you must be someone who's willing to be patient with my weird character if you want to be my husband . I always appear simple and easy to be dealt with but trust me , nobody actually knows the real me
Muahahahha

So people , guess what I'm craving now ?
TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Tell me , where the hell can i find this ? -_______-
Its not the season yet but im dying to eat this :(((((

2011-03-19T03:04:00.002+08:00

Hiii
I really need to stop complaining about how sad my life has been lately
but yet again , Mr. Period is here so its not helping at all
so i guess im gonna continue living like an annoying bitch until i find something useful to do that makes me wanna live happily again
Goodbye :)

2011-03-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

I was craving for nachos . Went to several 7Eleven stores but walked out of the store feeling sad and frustrated . I was at the cinema just now with mummy but my craving came only after our car left the carpark .

WHY IS THERE NO MORE NACHOS IN 7ELEVEN STORES NOWWWWW ?!?

I want nachos nachos nachos nachos badly :(

ARGHHHHHH . PISSED :'(

2011-03-15T03:24:00.002+08:00

I'm so embarrassed looking at my candid pictures I'm just at loss for words
There's more actually . and im like OH-MY-GOD-KILL-ME-NOW .
and then the next minute im like BUROK-NYE-MASYAALLAH .
I should have smiled more that day if i knew this would happen :(

2011-03-14T00:26:00.003+08:00

I'm a very confused girl right now .

Please , don't bother about me .

Because for the meantime , i'm being such a pain in the ass :)

2011-03-10T20:17:00.003+08:00

Have always wanted to work in a field where i would have to bun my hair when i go to work . Like a .. stewardess .
but unfortunately , my parents were against the idea of me being a stewardess :(
and the fact that i didnt get into the Aviation Management & Services course in Temasek Poly
is just .. sad .

But anyways , i can still bun my hair when i work in a dental clinic in the future !
yayyyy :)

2011-03-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

OMG I JUST DIED !

WHY DID YOU DO THAAAAAAAAAAAT ?!

*blush*

2011-03-09T13:49:00.001+08:00

I'm not happy :(

2011-03-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

I AM SO TRAUMATIZED I WILL NEVER. EAT. GORENG PISANG EVER. AGAIN.

the thought of goreng pisang or keledek goreng comes to mind makes me wanna puke !
for the second time in my life , i suffered from stomach flu
doctor said its some kind of virus in my stomach that makes me vomit out whatever i eat or drink
imagine , vomiting TWELVE times in a night
its damn tiring and painful okay

i shall describe everything in detail
muahahahaha
then after you guys read this post , you'll start puking too
V^^V

so , it was on thursday , 3rd March 2011 , when this tragedy happened to me .
i was at afganistan with mom and aunt
we were models for my aunt's makeup class .
before that , we ate at Mr Teh Tarik .
I had Wanton noodle and bandung for lunch
after that we bought keledek and pisang goreng
so i ate and ate and ate like a happy fat girl
around 7 we had our dinner at Saffron .
that's when my stomach starts acting up
i thought i had gastric or something because my stomach felt bloated and windy
so i told my cousin to pat my back to help me burp
but it didnt work
i started feeling nauseous and my tongue felt weird
so i thought , maybe i ate too much

in the car , i couldnt sit still
i felt like i was in some ship or something . my head starts hurting and my chest felt heavy
but i held it in
at the carpark , the moment i stepped out of the car , i vomited out my digested noodles .
guess what ?
my noodles looked like worms please ! and because i had bandung , it was all reddish-pink in colour so imagine how disgusting that was .
and it landed all over my clothes , my shoe , my hair , my phone !
ewwwww ?

so i rushed back home and washed up
after i vomit for the first time , i felt relieved
but no , it didnt end there
i started throwing up again . and again . and again .
this time , since there's no longer anything left in my stomach , my vomit was brownish-black in colour .
disgusting righhht ?
and no , it didnt stop there ,
i vomited again .
this time it was green in colour
GREEN. GREEN OKAY PEOPLE !
i was half dead by then . so weak and exhausted from vomiting

so my dad gave me 100plus and made me sleep
while sleeping , i felt something was coming up from my throat
so i got up and walked to the toilet
while walking , at the kitchen , i couldnt hold it in any longer and i vomit there
and because i was too weak , i fell on the floor -______-
this time , my vomit was pale greenish-yellow in colour
and it smells like rotten fish !
yucks

in the middle of the night around 3 , i woke up to drink water because i was dehydrated .
i drank plain water .
and the next minute , i had to rush to the toilet bowl to throw it all out
seriously , i thought i was gonna die vomiting
my chest started to feel tired and cramped
i was panting like i just ran around the house
it was like .. nightmare :/

and i continued vomiting again at 4am . and then at 5.30am . and lastly at 6am .
and then , i finally got to sleep properly

around 10 i woke up and bathed .
went to the family clinic and told the doctor what happened
he gave me a jab to stop me frm vomiting because we were leaving for KL that night
he asked me if i got fever and i said no .
but then he checked my temperature and it was 38.2 degrees :/
so now , imagine how horrible and miserable i felt at that point of time
tskkkkk

went home and ate my medicine . i finally get to sleep for hours
mom woke me up to eat the porridge she made for me .
after afew spoonfulls , i felt something coming up my throat .
i got up from bed but didnt make it , so i ended up vomiting on my bedroom floor
my food wasnt even digested okay .
its still in the porridge form .
tsk , my stomach ahhhhhh . attitude you know .
give everything also reject .
i very hungry ya knowww ! drink plain water also reject . tsktsk

so yea , thats the end of my vomit story
but its a good thing though , i lost weight from all those vomiting okay !
so happy :D

the first time i got stomach flu was ages ago . that was during hari raya
i ate rendang and started throwing up
and because of that incident , i stopped eating rendang till now .
the only rendang i eat is the one my mom or my aunt cook
other than that , jangan harap aku makan rendang ! yucks !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
taperlu sia aku k bye !

2011-02-26T03:02:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiii

Im just gonna update about Ibu's birthday on the 24th
since pictures were taken using my phone so yea

At first sweet laa . nak suap suap kononnn

Lepas tu hamekk kao . HAHAHAHHAAHA . Ayah face so nakal righhht ! kesian ibu . but damn funny maayn . then my mum placed an icepack on my dad's neck for revenge . tu paaaart , my dad's reaction = PRICELESS

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAAH

You know , i guess i'm gonna MIA for awhile
I've been thinking whether i should delete facebook and my blog
I've come to the stage where i just feel like , i should live quietly
Or perhaps i feel that people shouldnt be knowing whatever i want to do with my life
But on second thoughts , i've been blogging for the past four years
and its a waste if i delete this blog righhhht . tsk
so ... let me just think again
If suddenly you cant access my blog or couldnt find me in facebook then its Goodbye-cyber-world-i'm-out kind of thing okayy
alright , for now , you wouldnt be hearing much from me
So , adios :)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH zzzz

2011-02-21T03:15:00.006+08:00

Before the clock strikes twelve :

Do you believe me if i say the lady in white is my ibu ? No ?
Okay trust me , she's my mother . MOTHER . not sister . she's my MUMMY okay ?
I bet now you'll be thinking how lucky i am to have a cool and young mother right ?
hehee , of course she's more like a sister than a mother to me
but trust me , mothers are still mothers okay .

So at twelve exactly , these two ladies i love most sang me happy birthday at the top of their lungs
hahaa , and at the same time i got a call from dani
i was told to come outside for awhile
anddddd ,
tadaaaaaaaa !

The nicest birthday gift i got at my doorstep at midnight today :))))
(Eventhough it was super embarrassing that he saw me with my pajamas pants . omg what was i thinking maaayn seriously . i should have changed righhhhht pfft)

Dear Time ,
please chill maaayn . Can i stop ageing now ?
i dont want to grow old
im still enjoying my youth so please , slow down

Yours sincerely ,
The Kakak seventeen

pffft , i cant believe im still lame and random as ever
oh well ,
but seriously , i dont look forward to being old
some people cant wait for their 16th birthday so they can watch NC16 movies (???) or their 18th birthday so they're officially legal to get married/buy ciggs/drink/take driving licence/clubbing
-___________________________________-
since im not interested in any of those (except getting married and getting driving licence) , i want to stop growing or ageing already . can ?

HAHA what kind of birthday speech is this seriously ?

okay , urmmmmmmmmm ,
im finally seventeen ! yayyyyyyyyyy -.-
boo syahirah !

so anw , i caught Sweety doing something to my present
jeng jeng !

She loves the pillow too . awwwwwwww

We'll sleep with this together tonight okay ?

For now , thank you for the wishes
i purposely remove my birthday from facebook to see if there's anyone who really remembers my birthday
I thought im gonna be disappointed or something but it turns out that im wrong .
i got people who wished me through text messages too and i almost teared
because at least i know there are people who still remembers me

(you know i dont mix around well and that there's a high possibility that i might vanish from everyone's mind that i actually exist in this world)

so because of that , i'm really thankful for those who wished me
Thank you for making my day
and lastly , to Syafiq danial , thank you for making me smile so much today :D

2011-02-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

Imagine the limited space i have to sleep every night
Imagine how i would curl my body to sleep every night

but when i wake up , i'll be the only one sleeping soundly on my bed
so ,

Imagine how i would accidentally kick all of them off my bed every night

-__________-

2011-02-17T14:24:00.003+08:00

Hiii i went to a chalet yesterday
i was so hungry so i ate whatever i see
i even gulped down uncooked hotdogs
the hotdog were still cold in the inside but i dont care and just ate them
and now i have tummy aches !
niceeee -.-

so much for dieting -______-

2011-02-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

Hi people who wants to lose weight ! (like me -__-)
this is a very good way of motivating yourself to lose weight
if you cant do it for yourself , at least do it to look good for others

"No woman is ugly . It's just that some women are lazy"

so i guess im also gonna give myself 200 days to lose weight
i dont know if i can do it or not
because ive been saying i want to lose weight since long time ago but they're just simply empty talks
pffft
okay so ,

rule no. 1 : In the morning , eat like a QUEEEEEN

rule no. 2 : In the afternoon , eat like a PRINCESSSS

rule no. 3 : At night , eat like a PAUPERRR :(

huahua
when it comes to food , i dont know if i can resist or not buttttt
im still gonna try
200 days okay syahirah
by then if i still dont lose weight ,
thennnnnn ,
haaais
just live your life la syahirah seriously -.-

2011-02-14T17:51:00.004+08:00

G : Why do you keep hanging around me ?
Why do you keep appearing ?
Why are you doing this ?
Do you like me by any chance ?

B : ....

G : I asked if you like me ?

B : Do i seem that much of a mad man ?
Do i look like i'm lacking something ?
Have you ever seen someone like me like a woman like you ?
Do you think that makes any sense realistically ?
I think you're misunderstanding something ..
If i piled up the pictures of the women with good education ,
family background and looks who are willing to marry me ,
it would be as tall as a building
But with your family , education , skills and age ,
you dont have one thing that's good
By any chance , you have anything , raise your hand !

G : ....

B : See ! you dont have one .

G : Then why are you following me around ?

B : Why are you asking me that ?

G : Then who should i ask ?

B : You should ask yourself
What am i supposed to do ? when you keep appearing infront of me ?
Whether i meet you or not , it seems to be like i'm with you
So what am i supposed to do ?
How desperate do you think i am ?
What have you done to me ?
Why did you choose me to do this ?

G : What ?

B : You just hang up the phone whenever you feel like it
When i come find you , you get angry
When i try to buy you food , you get even angrier
Even worse than that , you hit me !
You're completely a strange woman
....
But that's exactly the problem , that is
You're so strange that i find you
......
puzzling and amazing .

B : So right now im just ...
Going crazy

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
the reason why im stuck to this drama nowwww :D

2011-02-13T08:47:00.001+08:00

HI
I JUST DIED WATCHING THIS SCENE

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WHY SO HANDSOMEEEEE ?
heheeeee

2011-02-13T06:53:00.004+08:00

Hi
i had a dream
i cant decide whether it was a bad or weird or it might even be a good dream
in my dream , i was in a world where all ladies/girls/women have lost their virginity even before marriage
and i was the only girl surviving (WTH !)
okay urmms

isnt it weird ?
what a weird dream righhhht pffft

so anw , when i woke up from sleep , i just stared at my ceiling and thought
why should i be embarrassed about this ?
i mean isnt it a good thing ?
a good thing that im saving my first kiss and whatever Firsts for my husband ?
because at least if people want to make fun or tease of me ,
i can proudly say that i could be like those girls anytime i want in a blink of an eye . but no matter how hard these girls try , they can never be like me

okayy you must be thinking what the hell is this girl blogging about her V. issues
so early in the morningg

this is what happens when you watch too much movies like this

now , i cant stop thinking about food
omg someone slap me seriously -.-

2011-02-13T01:01:00.003+08:00

Hi
i saw baby twins yesterday
and their mummy is so young
i swear i feel like getting married now
HAHAHAHAHAHA

dear god , i'd be happy if im blessed with twins when i have children later ,
amin :)

now , imagine if me and Rain were to have twins
our babies would look like this

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errr , like ........

this ....

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .
omg i must be crazy right !

anddd , whats with people and valentines day maayn seriously ?
the singles are complaining how lonely they feel during valentines day la and how depressing the day would be la.
cmon people ! its all in the mind !
the only reason why you feel lonely or depressed that you dont have a partner is because you are too carried away with those lovebirds talking about their upcoming "sweet" day
-_______-
i mean , hello ? i survived 4 years of solo day okaay pffft fml
but still , im enjoying it
senang ckp , DAH SINGLE BUAT HAL SINGLE LERRRRRRRRR
no need to jealous with those who's celebrating it righhhht
and its not like you cant celebrate the day or something
lebeh afdhal kalau kita kita umat islam menyambut valentines day bersama keluarga
tidakkah indah itu ?
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
and to those lovebirds , shut the hell up la !
dont have to brag righhhht aiyoo

kannnnnnnn ,
kakak kakak single dah speakinggggg :)

anw , what happened to Planet Pluto ah seriously ?
i heard afew years back that its out of the solar system righhhht ?
hmmmmmmmm okay no link bye :)

2011-02-11T18:28:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile since i last watch any Indonesian love movies
i shall watch this one tonight :)

I'll faint if a guy stares at me like that
Huahuaaa kental